The fact is, I MISS you guys. Very much, in fact. It’s kinda weird to be missing you guys when all this while I never had what I’m having now. It’s that feeling when you miss somebody so much. I can’t explain it. I’m sorrowed because now I believe that distance does makes a difference. Know what I mean? I’m pretty sure that the thought of your best friends studying elsewhere makes you feel alone. Loneliness is what I’m feeling now. Although I know I still have friends here at KK, I guess I still want my friends from Labuan to be here. Maybe, just maybe, I’m troubled by them being around new companies. I don’t want them to go there and make new friends because I wanna preserve what we have. But, I know that sounds selfish of me. Sigh. But it is what I’m feeling right now. I wouldn’t wanna end up being the only one who still think that what we had before is still on and things are still damn fine and not awkward.
I don’t want to always be the one who send an sms to you guys or be the one to initiate a conversation. I don’t know if you guys are busy or not. I don’t want to be left out. But, it pains me not to be updated in your lives. Damn. I wish it wouldn’t be this hard. Wanna know how I’m feeling, I’m feeling so small right now. Why? Because every time I send an sms, I get this feeling of drifting further away from you guys because the way you state how your life is a blast over there build up a jealousy inside of me. You’re getting a new best friend and I’m soon gonna be replaced. Sigh. I want to meet all of you again but what if the awkward silence be present when we meet up? Now that’s my biggest fear.
Anyway, I guess things are gonna get harder each day. Soon, I’ll be heading off to Perak and take up Foundation in IT and Communication at Universiti Teknologi Petronas. It’ll be new and interesting. Yeah, I’m talking about the course. But of course, the surroundings will be new and the people I meet will be total strangers. Damn. And all of these, I have to face ALONE. I don’t have anybody there. Not my parents, not my bestfriend, not even my relatives. Huhu. Although, I have Jeremy by my side, it’s still a mystery if we would be sticking together then, or would fate separate us into separate rooms. Huhu. I know my best friends are just a phone call or a click away but still, pushing the technologies aside, I’m still gonna have to adjust to new sosial life and I believe, I would be getting a culture shock there. Damn.
I only have less than 2 months before I board the MAS plane to KLIA and the taxi to Tronoh Perak. Please guys, help me out okay. I can’t live without my friends. Even an sms message from you guys will ease my loneliness. I know I gotta be stronger, I gotta be matured and I gotta be positive. So, right now, all I’m asking is, please never lose contact with me! 0168048787.
I know, I know, I’m being paranoid over losing my friends. I hope I’ll get over it soon. I know I’ll be meeting new people and potentially Mrs. Lolo. Haha. But, let’s not go that far, yet. Haha. Hopefully, since UTP is an international University, I’d be meeting a lot of foreigners and be able to get to know their cultures and language. My Mum said the funniest thing to me that day when I told her that the university is an international university, “Hah? international?! Nah boy, jangan bawa balik pompuan Negro kama”. Wahaha. That’s the funniest thing my mum ever advised me on. Oh ya, my dad initially offered me a laptop and a new handphone for me to use there. But sadly, he changed his mind. He said no need to buy a new laptop because I’m gonna get one during my second year at UTP. But, the handphone offer on the other hand, might still be alive. He said no, but I’m trying to convince my dad to buy me a 3G phone in case they miss my cute-only son-awww face. Haha.
So, I guess that’s it for now, I’m really, really missing the guys at Matrix.
- Ivan “cTboy”
- Samantha “Su”
- Keith “Ketiak”
- The happy family – Pis, Erin, Dba
- BaTB – Amie, Fz, Atel
- The Bunga – Fee, Opah, Achu.
Actually, I’m missing cTboy and Su the most. Haha. Hope they are doing fine there. And, special message to Keith :
“Jan macam taik sana mau msg sia guna bahasa2 asing. Wahaha. Sia tau la ko mau pok pompuan pilipin. So, jan lupa invite. Haha, nanti sia kahwin Negro, ko kahwin pilipin. wahaha”
Here’s another special message to Ameline my best friend =) :
“Whatever happens, I hope we both still continue in hopes of becoming America’s Next Top Model. oOps. Haha. No ba, Whatever happens, I hope we still stick together as best friend, and I hope that they will never ever be awkward silence between us okay? And since you’re rich, kalau me xda kredit, tulung2 la ah, Hahaha”
This one goes out to Hakim :
“I hope you’ll get your JPA or Shell, Good Luck Okay? hehe. And. I hate http://www.sourmath.com. Damn u gay boy, I hope we will still be able to DoTA like we do now in the future okay?”
This one to Zeff :
“Congrats dpt JPA, jadilah Doctor Kadazan yg famous. Hehe. Anyway, Nasib dpt tingu AI and AF finals. So, good luck in your studies and don’t lose contact as well. Please inform me of your blog should you have one soon orite?”
This one to Chubby :
” Keep on blogging and I hope I get to crita with you again about crushes.. awwww.. Haha.. And, good luck in Curtin! Keep you head up and be sexy always. P/s : I still wanna slap you.”
So, I guess that’s it. To those yang nda dapat special message tu, Jan la merajuk, ada jua tu nanti. Hehe. Keep in touch. -Lolo-