I’ll tell you first hand how a drinking session can make me think about life in a way that the sober me won’t be able to.
I guess I see how it’s easy to rub off the differences you have with someone you despise so much or maybe it’s just a matter of having a good time. That’s just one case. I also thought about how it’s hard to even talk to a person you despise so much even when you’re drinking. Get what I mean?
If you read through my blog you can see that I’m really just a person who talks non-stop about my friends. I don’t know. Somehow I feel that talking about my friends makes me appreciate myself and my life so much more. I can even talk about them longer than what I can talk about my ex.
It upsets me though whenever I experience a broken friendship with friends that I do care about. This is totally different than watching the friendship you have with certain people that you’ve come to despise crumbles. You don’t want people to talk behind your back but if what you are doing to yourself and to others is making others uncomfortable or annoyed, maybe you should changed for the better or just find new cliques.
It’s frustrating to be in the middle of a fight or being the cause of a problem. Don’t you think so? when you said something hurtful accidentally and you get a cold shoulder in return for a whole week or you degraded from being a best friend to just an acquaintance almost in an instance. It’s like you accidentally set a building on fire and the ashes is all that you get. When you try to build a new building, you just know that it’s just not gonna be the same again.
I can only say I wouldn’t wanna be in another fight if I could because I lose almost everything that’s meaningful to me just because I said something hurtful.
Currently, I am happy with my life. Being busy is hectic and tiring, but at the same time, I always have this miraculous thinking of how awesome my life in campus is to be retold later in life. I don’t care how people are gonna judge me about my life. I’m just thankful I get to experience whatever I’ve experienced so far.
Everybody got a mood swing yeah? I’m certainly in the middle right now. Was happy but will be happier =)
People at home, don’t worry about me here, believe me I’m not bragging when I say I can think on my own. I’m almost 20 now and I think I am mature enough to do this and that. If I do blur up and if I ever need some guidance, I’ll know who to find.
Oh, bestnya blog emo2 cam ni time2 bilik gelap and diam. hehe.