I’m here.
Lying on this bed,
Trying to get my mind to clear.

I’m trying to get used to blogging on my blackberry. Cause I just love the feel of this.

Again, I wanna post something about music. Haha.

Lately all my nights have been dedicated to convo dinner performances. Practised a whole lot with virtuoso. Who would’ve thought kan. This is such a big deal.

So, I was exposed to pop music when I was growing up. Mtv, channel v, hitz dot fm, traxx fm, mix fm, lite fm. 90’s music, millenium music, u name it.
Then came the era that changes the pop culture, where rap fuses into a lot of rock music. I start to accept hiphop coming in. Then pop came back with a lot more fusion.

I started to feel bored with the way sounds are coming out from the radio. Everything sounds the same. Then came Youtube. That animal. I saw some people recorded themselves singing with backing track that have faint singing voice still in them. That made me open my eyes. Wow. there’s more to a song than what you listen to. In order words, a song can sound new with a change of singer, instruments, chord progression, song structure. Youtube introduced me to the ‘cover’ concept.

Man did that changed my life. I started searching for covers of my favourite songs. I think the video that inspired me the most to create a youtube account to upload my own video was by miarose, she was covering goo goo doll iris? Damn. I wanted to learn guitar so badly and learn how to sing. Actually, I know how to do both. It’s just that I wanted to be better.

Then I started getting pocket money. I remembered one day, during the SPM break, I was stuck at home. I called one of my best friend if he can go out, and he could. He picked me up and we went straight to karaoke. Haha. Good times.

Karaoke did wonders for me. People who never saw the crazy side of me will flip when they see me belt linkin park’s in the end (yes, even shinoda’s rap part) and black eyed peas’ where is the love. All time favourite. And karaoke is the one thing I don’t mind spending my money for. Bagi lah 10 jam pun. Nda kisah.

One thing people probably don’t know about me is I entered the Digi karaoke competition. Haha. Didn’t even got through the first round. Hahaha. That competition was won by Salma, mentor 5 winner?. Oh well, who cares. Haha.

Starting from there, I always thought of myself as this loser who will always only be deemed as a good singer in karaoke or in my own youtube videos only. Joining talent search or eupho in UTP is like a scary shit. Confidence is one issue. Then you have to front a band. I can speak to people but sometimes when I try to be friendly. It’s awwwwkkkward to me. Haha.

Talent search 2009 – I sang katy perry’s thinkin of you. Got good response, but according to a commitee member, I placed 23rd out of 30 participants. Ain’t that sad. A senior’s words gave me back some confidence. He said if I only sit down and sing they will automatically don’t put you thru. Like wth but yeah.

Euphonious 2010 – formed a band with my juniors called ‘Jack Daniel’s’. One of my sweetest moments. Jammed so freely. Caught some attention that night, but didn’t get through to the finals because our set up time caused us to lose marks. Haha. Swore with my juniors to continue joining eupho until we enter finals.

Music pursuit 2010 – entered this new version of talent search. Sang Bruno Mars’ Just the way you are for the audition. This time I didn’t sit. And I got thru. Wow. Haha. Sang a not-so-popular the fray’s song and placed last in the finals. Hahaha. Ketawa jak la. But yeahhh enjoyed!

Euphonious 2012 – wee hoooo. Formed a band with my coursemates. Sang amy winehouse and pramlee’s song during pre lims and got thru to the finals. I blogged about this before. Seriously didn’t expect finals at all. Then, I even played acoustic intro for michael jackson’s billie jean during the finals. Performed pramlee again and turns out, the judges was won over.. Wee hooo!! We won eupho 2012. What made me extra happy, my junior’s joined too and got into the finals too. Hehe.

UITM battle of the band 2012 – joined this so last minute. Jammed only the night before the day of competition. Brought the same song as eupho finals. And we won again! Haha. I think so far, I sang the best in this competition. Flawless in my on opinion. Hahahahahaha dafuq.

Hujan concert, opening act – yeah. Cuz we won uitm botb competition, we won the honour of opening for Hujan band’s concert in uitm. Performed pink floyd’s echoes, which I only start to memorize the lyrics the night before. Memang fakup la. Haha. But still got thru it. Also performed pramlee’s JTD again, but without my duet partner. There was a keyboard slack during the song intro cuz it wasn’t transposed back down after echoes. So we restarted the song again. The crowd was in disapproval with faint hints of boos but I think I did well saying some shits to calm things down.. Haha

TTS, putera sangkar maut show. Joined back the bits band to handle sound effects and extra turn performances for the theatre. Seriously an awesome experience to learn about theatre and sound effects. Then I had to perform Sudirman’s Salam terakhir and P ramlee’s Di mana kan ku cari ganti, after being persuaded by the theatre people. Banyak la jadi. Lupa lirik pun ada. Haha tapi besttt jugak!

Convo dinner – this is upcoming. So far I have to sing 3 songs. All duets. Hahaha. Hopefully it will go fine.

Convo – will perform 1 song. Ahhhhhh takut.. Hahaha..

So that’s my musical timeline in utp. Amazing. I never knew it was coming. I’m more than grateful now knowing that before this nothing was successful. Took several tries before getting noticed. Not that I wanted to, but at least I can do what I love. Hehe.

Ok dahhhh .. Tido!

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Unexpected Ride

I accidentally clicked on ‘2012’ at my Facebook Timeline and the page scrolled itself to ‘Earlier in 2012’ section.

So, earlier this year I made a cover of Katy Perry’s The One That Got Away and Jason Derulo’s It Girl. I listened back to those covers and I was brought back to that time. I once thought when am I ever gonna make it big with this voice. I was always the one that hides behind that camera. Even with that camera rolling, I don’t really look at the screen. I just sing and look at the lyrics that I know every single line of. Self-confidence? Zero.

Then, I keep scrolling down to ‘recent’ event in 2012. I saw the Euphonious photos that I was tagged in, I saw the video of us in prelims and the Finals. I saw my post-champion status post in FB that got over 60 likes (which is rare for people like me). Then all I can think of is how things change. How the turn of events can bring you to this unexpected road.

It’s almost over for me here in UTP, and it’s still weird but I’m happy. Last week, I just performed in front of a crowd that came for a theater show, the crowd that sang happy birthday to me before I got up to that stage and belt out Sudirman’s Salam Terakhir.

A week after that, which is today, I just finished practising with my beloved bandmates in preparation of convocation dinner. Another big stage.


To think that all this shit started cause I put one frikkin video of me singing Mariah Carey’s Bye Bye in 2007.

I can’t believe it.

The response I got from that video, though not many, made me excited, made me feel appreciated for something. I was never good in anything, the best I could achieve has always been ‘second best’.

I finally found one thing where I could freely do what I want, and still looks good or rather sound good doing it. And it’s a blessing that this talent is very versatile. Versatile as in I can sing with people who play music, I can sing for people, I can sing with other people, I can praise God, I can have a career out of this, I can make friends.

Look at me now.

Hey ol self. look at me now.

I’m still grounded. I still have low-self esteem. but I know whenever I put trust in what I’m given, I can do wonders.

I got better. Cuz I wanted to. I listened to alot of music, tried to imitate a lot of singer. Tried my darn best to expand my range.

Even missing a note or not hitting the highest note in a song can make me upset.

That’s how bad I wanted to be good.

One day, I’ll fulfil my dreams, that no one else know about. I don’t wanna be those popular singers. I have a dream that only myself know.


The wonders of life.


I sound high.

I sound drunk.

But I’m not.

I just realized that I never look back and evaluate how much I should appreciate.

So cheers to the future 😉