[LONG POST] si gemuk yg jadi kurus gemuk balik mau kurus lagi.

Hello readers!

Scrolling down my homepage, I can see most of my not-so-recent posts are music-related. haha. Well, today, I feel like totally blogging on something very personal. Hihi

As you could probably deduce from the title, it’s about my freaking weight. Yes. Sia la tu si gemuk yang jadi kurus, gemuk balik, mau kurus lagi balik. kunun. haha

During my primary school years, I was really skinny. Apa tidak, main bubut bubut, rounders, polis sentep(police & thief), bola jak time rehat di sekolah. Then, pada suatu hari, sia pigi Australia with my family, for my father’s convocation. I think that’s where I started to balloon in size. Freakin Aussie.

Time form 1 ok masih, masih comel, kecik, nerd. Masuk form 2, nahhhh. alala, mula suda makan sasau tiap minggu. And aktiviti riadah kurang kurang sudah. So fast forward, sampai form 5, saiz seluar 33. Oh ma god. Sama saiz sama daddy time tu. hahaha

Before masuk Utp, sempat lagi kerja Mcd, so kerja penat, tapi mkn Mcd hari2, omg. tmbh berat adalah. But in that year, sia ada pigi naik gunung for a freakin 4th time, and at that time, I had a freaky accident time naik. Well, ok. not freaky. I just slipped on a rock near a small stream. The thing is, I fell down on my ass. More specifically, my left glutious maximus. hahaha. And I was not even halfway through to Panar Laban. Cramps felt every 50m. But yeah, I did conquered the mountain for the 4th time all the way to the top.

How is that related to this post? Macam out sudah kan. hahaha. Well, since then, I have this recurring cramps on my left thigh, nda buli lari jauh and lumpat tinggi. The impact trigger cramps. Sigh. Plus, I was already around 70 kg that time. Gilaaaa.

So, when I entered UTP, I has this goal of losing weight, especially when I got to know that uni students makan ala kadar and maggi seja. haha. Sorry lah, I’m not from a boarding school before. And it gets annoying when all your friends are from boarding school and think you can’t survive uni cuz you never been toany boarding school pfft. hahaha

Well yeah. So my foundy years in utp is actually pretty amazing. Jog at the tasik and padang every evening, or played futsal especially with the chinese and borneo peeps. Slowly but surely, I knew I lost some weight by the end of the sem. At that time, one sem was 6-months worth. My reassurance was how my pants seems to stick lower and lower down my waist. haha

So, when I met my parents in kl during the sem break, they did not even recognized me. Haha. Went up on a scale at the hotel, and realised I lost 8kg. hahaha. Apa lagi, baju baru, seluar baru, rambut baru! Cuz I freaking looked like a caveman hahaha with my shaggy hair and baggy clothes. Tiba2 pandai pakai jeans sma baju slim fit.

Tapiiii, itu foundy. hahaha belum kenal lagi setan2 di uni. Sia masi juga joging hari2, until I found a new fucked up companion. Sigup. oh and mr alcohol. hahaha. When I started to embrace those things, my evening activities makin kurang. Makin malas, makin nda fit.

Sampai lahhhh 2nd year, when I was going for internship in my hometown. Tiap minggu futsal balik, pigi my uncle’s house, cuz he got some gym equipments. So I got back into groove. But at this time, my weight has gone up from 66kg to 69kg. Haha.

So, when I was back in UTP for my final year, I made an effort to go joging every day. But yeah, final year kot. Banyak barang mo buat cuz it’s final year. haha. minum pun byk.

So fast forward, after I graduated, I ballooned back into a 75kg unemployed dude. Hari2 ikut daddy makan sasau kan hahaha. So, after I started working, I feel that I really need to start to be serious. Enough is enough. Mau sangat kunun jadi artist youtube, tapi.. mau keluar youtube pun nda konfiden with my looks.

Thank God, rezeki bagus, I got a job with my uncle that allowed me to come to and go back from work at a flexible time. Plus, gaji plus commission buli tahan. Well, enough for me to start my savings. Not as much as my friends in oil and gas, but still, it’s more than enough for me to survive and save.

Recently, I took up Herbalife, not only for my weight, cuz my health was deteriorating. And I’m not gonna reveal why. I am now serious in this goal. And I don’t freakin care what people has to say about it. haha. I know what I’m doing.

So, just to share, I have lost around 5kg, dlm 1 months plus. Not just with Herbalife. haha. Finally got the groove back to jog and futsal again.

One thing I regret before, when I lost 8kg, I never really took notice of my body’s physical apperance. I don’t know how my arms look, I don’t know how my tummy looked, yeah you get the idea. All because I never had the confidence to look in the mirror.

Now, I become a narcissist because I want to know how I change. haha. Well, all in a good intention. So yeah. Saja mau blog panjang2, cuz I know i won’t post again until I got another thing come up haha.

So bababai readers! (that’s if you read through the whole post hahaha) bababai

Life after No recommendation.

So I kinda graduated last January, that is, I finished my final exams, and settled the clearance requirements for the graduation and convocation. My convocation ceremony is due this year, October. EXCITED!

Sooooooooo, January and October is pretty far apart. Almost a year, kan? After getting my final exam results last January, which I excelled ehem for the final sem, I had to wait for another 2 weeks for the xxx structured interview. And the waiting continues until that day. Called in around 4 times and got through to the person in charge. After giving my IC number, the woman told me “Hmmm. Encik Lorenzo, your SI results is here, and it says that you are NOT RECOMMENDED for xxx. So, you are free to look for employment opportunities out there and we will be in contact with you in the future about your bond.”

How did I feel? Devastated. I was kinda regretful that I didn’t have any back up plans or visions, just in case I did not get it. I guess my hopes were pumped too high by friends and other authorities that keeps reminding us that xxx needs more Sabahans. And the remarks “Confirm dapat lah” altogether raised my hopes.

It took quite a while for it to sink in, that I GOT TO START APPLYING FOR JOBS. I was enticed with the idea of reappealing xxx and I did it anyway, but of course, it is a rule that once you are not recommended, you are categorized into a kind of probational period where you can only reapply for another interview after a year or so.

I got a call from them nonetheless, for a chit chat session. So I searched online on novena for employments, and found one of Jose Maria. I did it for nine days, of course, to bless me to do well during the session, but you know what, details never came, no phone calls, no emails. When I tried calling back to the one who called to inform me about the chit chat, it always go through to the voice mail. How is that professional? Seriously, I was again, disappointed. People say it’s not meant to be, yeah I accept it, but I still do wanna voice out, if you wanna cancel the session, at least tell me. Don’t get my hopes up just to slam it back down. I canceled and reschedule some job interviews just because I was reserving it for that chit chat session date. It’s painful. It’s not okay, at least at that time.

But a few days before the supposed session,  I got a call from my uncle in Menggatal, saying that he need someone to create a database for his business, and to help his company with basic photo editing. So I said, why the hell not. I’m broke and I need a fresh start, and even if I got the job with xxx,  it would take probably 1 1/2 months for my applications to be reviewed and processed.

So yeah, I basically came to Sulaman every weekdays and start creating a database for my uncle. The pay is nothing much, but it pays nonetheless. Only Sabahans will know the distance between Penampang and Sulaman, and how many traffic lights intersections I have to drive through every day.

God really work in a mysterious ways, I firmly believe that now. Just a few days ago, I suddenly got a call from a company in Inanam where I applied  and interviewed for a programmer post. It was truthfully shocking because it was already a month after the interview, I thought my application was already discarded. The manager that called me said they are offering the post to me because they are deciding between me and another person. So I asked opinions from my parents, roomate and friends, oh and also my uncle who is my boss on this matter. I finally came to a decision of joining that company.

Just now, I signed the contract in joining the company. I asked the HR person about the other candidates that interviewed on the same day I did that day. She said one was not qualified and the other one had no feedback. I feel second best for a second, that they are only offering the job the me cuz the other one did not respond to their offer, but soon sense comes knocking back into my head, it’s rezeki for God sake. It’s meant to be. It’s a chance to prove myself.

I realized one thing about myself through all of this. I tend to overthink the things that are not even certain yet. I always think of the worst circumstances and I always doubt my abilities to perform. What I never cared to think of were on the best case scenarios, this is an opportunity of a lifetime and I am good at what I do, it’s just that there are people better than me and that’s where I’ll improve and I’ll be better.

I’ll start back at the bottom but who knows, I may have the best time of my life, doing what I love, (yeah. I frikin enjoy programming. haha) and I may just start my own company in the future. Who knows right?

So, to my fellow friends that are anticipating your SI or the results, please know that it’s really not the end. Lol. Cliche, I know. I also rolled my eyes inside my mind reading people’s support towards my not recommended status. But eventually, yeah, you’ll move on. You’ll realized how stupid you were thinking that it’s the end of the world. How much time was wasted sobbing for things in the past when you could’ve soared high already.

Seriously, the figure of pays may saddens me, cuz yeah, OnG company pays you very well , and I won’t taste that, ever? but I truly do believe that God has many things planned for me. Sure, luxury will come if I really work hard. It’s really a waste of time to compare myself with my friends who got recommended. I already stop beating myself up on why they got it and why I didn’t. It’s unhealthy for friendships and really, unhealthy for your mentals seriously!

Jangan jeles2, asal bahagia, asal halal di sisi agama, tiada halangan mau bahagia di masa hadapan. Kita bersyukur dengan pa kita ada.

And lastly, I’m super thankful that I got over this phase very quickly (this is quite quick. haha) because of the fact that I have friends who never looked down on me, and parents who supports me no matter what. And of course, the Lord Almighty.

Oh God, panjangnya post. hahaha not like anyone’s gonna read it anyway, but yeahhhh. finally got all these out. Cheers to the future!!


ted mosby said saying something for 50 times will make even the most not weird things weird. haha. since im kinda craving for karipap again, imma make it weird and not desirable. so….

karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap.
karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap.
karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap.
karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap.
karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap. karipap.

that was stupid.

anywayyyy. semalam we did a steamboat to kinda celebrate christmas. haha. So, Fli did most of the steamboat prep and cooking, cuz me and Nas were so excited to make Karipap. haha. It’s our first time doing it. hamagad.

so, nda payah cakap banyak. tgk gambar. ahahaha.

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ahahaha. ok tu jak. saja jak mo tunjuk. karipap kami berjaya ok!

gambar terakhir tu.. pengunjung2 yg datang merasa steamboat & karipap. terima kasih encik faris dan chop yg sude bergambar bersama karipapers.

thanks jugak to kian, zul, kimi, chester yang datang bertandang! haha

picture credit to Syahmi! and my camera 😀

Pre-Graduation photo TAG


So, I’m really bored. Actually I have my last test in UTP tomorrow. muahaha. but nanti2 je la study.

So here’s a list of 10 things to do before you grad from UTP. It’s all my idea. Just do it for fun. Grab your besties and do it! hahaha. No pressure, Tiada paksaan dan Majulah sukan untuk negara. All these are to be done with a camera (camera phone, digital camera, dslr, etc) and each number are to be posted as individual post 😀

1. Theme : Lecture hall/room.Go to three different lecture halls/rooms and snap a photo of yourself sitting, standing, jumping in each room.

2. Theme : CafeteriaGo to at least 3 cafes in UTP and snap a picture of you (or with your friends) in front of the counter, tables, sinks, or wherever. As long as you know it’s a cafe that you’re at.

3. Theme : Academic Complexi. As UTPians, you should know that there’s a big rock seat that is placed in front of every block. Take a photo of yourself with that rock. haha.
ii. Depending on your course, go to your faculty block and take a picture with the Signage that shows the department and block name.. eg: Block 1.. Computer and Science Department..
iii. Take a photo near the ‘sungai kering’ or the bridge near the academic complex.

4. Theme : Crazy Coursematesi. Graduating soon huh? Who better to take pictures with than your coursemates!!
You must take photo with at least 10 of your classmates, be it boys or girls, or mix em up! Don’t  go for your best friends. Just choose random coursemates!

5. Theme : Awesome Lecturer
I won’t believe you if you said you don’t have any favourite lecturer. Ok, if you really don’t have one, just take a photo with your FYP or internship supervisor :D. If you really don’t have, just take a random photo with any lecturer you see. I DARE YOU

6. Theme : Mari bersenam
Have you ever exercised in UTP? If yes, where? haha. So, take a photo at the Sport complex, or the lake in V6. If you regularly jog behind v5 and the academic blocks, you should snap a picture there too!

7. Theme : UTP night splendorTake a photo in front of chancellor hall/IRC at night time. Awesome lights. Then you should take a photo at the pavement from the chancellor hall to the roundabout at night. Ala, tempat orang dating tu… haha.

8. Theme : Hostels
I dare you to take a picture in front of every room you’ve occupied before. Ok, maybe at least 3 if you have bad memories. haha. If you really can’t remember, just take a photo of yourself in front of all the villages 😀

9. Theme : Best Friends
Take some group photo with your bestfriends, and post it. then, look in your hard drive for past pictures of all of you together. Post it too. See the differences.

10. Theme : Final Goodbye
Before leaving UTP, take a photo of yourself, in front of UTP gate, where there’s the UTP logo and name is at. You don’t wanna miss that. Sob Sob Sob.

So.. that’s it. You can choose to do it. or not. just giving ideas here 😀 now get those cameras and snap snap snap!